I just feel so lost today. I feel like I am missing something, and I just can't figure out what it is. I miss my family, my friends, and my home. I love my boyfriend, but I just don't feel like he loves me the same. I want someone who will tell me they love me everyday. I want to be able to feel the love everyday, even if the words aren't expressed. I feel like we are 2 people living 2 separate lives in the same apartment. I want to be with my best friend, but it's like my best friend doesn't have time for me anymore. It's really depressing, to be honest. I feel like I've lost who I was, and I don't know who I am anymore. I don't even know what I want. I need to take a trip back home and reevaluate my life. Need to figure what I want, where I'm headed, and how I'm going to get there. I just feel so alone...
Loneliest Day,
BMS
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Friday, February 15, 2013
Where to Begin?
So where to begin…? Well, a few months ago I left my home state
of 22 years and moved somewhere I never thought I’d go. I did it for a good
reason, but it sure isn’t what I was expecting. It is cold, lonely, and pretty
different. So far I have made zero friends, had a job for a day, and learned
how to cook with a Crock Pot. (I love the Crock Pot, so that should probably be
in a different category!) It’s my fault I’m so lonely, so this year is going to
be different. I have set a few goals for myself, and I’m hoping that this is
the year they are achieved. Some of those goals include:
- Learn to eat healthier
- Start exercising
- Get a job that I don’t hate (or an internship)
- Make 5 new friends
- Get straight A’s in school
So far, I am learning to eat healthier, have started
exercising, and have gotten all A’s, including an unfortunate A-. I will reach
these goals no matter what! So I guess I can make this blog about my journey to
reach these goals. Maybe I’ll throw in a few other things… it’s too early to
tell.
With Love,
BMS
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